tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38329989542724934912012-01-24T00:49:23.504-05:00This is my blog to detox my life. This blog is where I express my feelings and emotions. Some entries are just about life in general, but others will be towards specific people. It will be pretty obvious who and what I am writing about. If you like, or do not like, what I have wrote, please feel free to leave a comment or five. I am open to suggestion, and I strive for feedback. Constructive criticism only please! I do not like being chewed out on my own blog. Now, on to my life...Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.comBlogger281100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-49219230810464381952009-08-08T20:24:00.007-04:002009-08-08T20:44:15.400-04:00

I'm trying not to talk to him. Its only been about a day, but I'm trying not to. Its just the one thing that calms me down. The night after we broke up, he called me and we just talked for awhile like nothing was wrong. It was nice. I miss that. I miss him so much. I just want to see him and be with him. And I don't know what to do because he doesn't want to see me anymore. I still have his stuff

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-14994182669661409092009-08-06T12:43:00.006-04:002009-08-06T17:14:38.569-04:00

I miss him. I mean I miss our relationship and everything, but I just miss him most of all. I miss everything he is and has been to me. I want to be his best friend just to be close to him. I know him so well, and probably more than some people will ever know. I never want to hear about any girl he may like or want to date because I want that girl to be me. I've told him things I've never shared

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-80580249578693571272008-05-06T21:39:00.001-04:002008-05-06T21:41:59.179-04:00

progressiveU.More political/big issue topics in a blog.I'm still going to update this.. eventually.

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-12013732480015516842007-12-07T23:02:00.000-05:002007-12-07T23:39:31.061-05:00

I haven't written in this in a long time. I've had too much work, with last term being mostly honors/AP core classes. Now, this term, my only core classes are bio and AP; big deal, eh? So I guess I've got some catching up to do:..Gym starts up this term. I was completely dreading it since I haven't had gym since seventh grade. But its honestly not that bad. We're going to play broomball. I'm uber

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-40569457058759111252007-11-17T23:23:00.000-05:002007-12-07T23:48:32.357-05:00

The video is lame for this, but the one I had was deleted off YouTube. Now, I'm forced to use this one, sorry! Oh and in response to my last post, I need to do this, but I can't.

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-35901542370284110762007-11-17T22:55:00.000-05:002007-11-17T23:07:03.679-05:00

Okay, so today I went to a OSU/UM party. After Chelsea, Britt, and I left (around 4:30), apparently everyone that was there was playing spin-the-bottle. And this one chick kissed three guys that I'm pretty good friends with.Now, the one I don't have a problem with her kissing. She like/d him before anyways. But the other two.. Boy A, he's basically taken. He's going away soon, and he likes this

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-73423190524565347182007-10-16T21:12:00.001-04:002007-10-16T21:31:57.641-04:00

Not "being with" someone is not an entirely bad thing. Just as friends can satisfy the feelings of not having a boyfriend. They can be there for you, but there's no commitment. You can do what you like without worrying about having to call them, or having to be there for them constantly. You can still like other guys and flirt with other guys, but you won't have to worry about this other person

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-42729855602297249242007-08-05T23:03:00.000-04:002007-08-05T23:16:06.738-04:00

Alright, so here is the truth. As much as I want to, I cannot do this. I cannot like you. I do, but I cannot, I should not. You hurt my friends and me. You went after my best friend. I do not think you are ready for a serious relationship. I do not think that we can work right now. When you are ready for a long-term relationship, call me. Until then, we can deal with just being friends. Unless, I

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-64627980570471208712007-07-17T23:08:00.000-04:002007-07-17T23:11:30.294-04:00

Why is it that people tend to assume? If you have ever watched the episode of 8 Simple Rules where the dad says to his daughter, "when you ASSUME, you make an ass out of you and me." I love this quote. It shows how assuming leads you to what you believe is the truth, but in most cases is not. I hate assuming. I like fact. I like the truth.

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-5412789968840761952007-07-02T23:01:00.000-04:002007-07-02T23:09:32.111-04:00

I miss it. I want it. I like it. I love it. I need it. I am lost without it. I care for it. I cherish it. I cannot go on without it. You could say I am not in a good mood. Not understanding life and all. People and their agendas. I hate it. I hate being betrayed. I hate not knowing how to approach a situation. I hate not knowing what the next move is. Maybe there is not one. Maybe I am supposed

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-3108608611033003682007-07-01T21:00:00.000-04:002007-07-01T21:08:25.704-04:00

As I read my "life." blog, I began thinking about my first year in high school. I ended up writing a blog similar to my eighth grade one. Hope you like it!How do I summarize my first taste of high school? Was it everything I had hoped for? Was it memorable? Was it worth it. Yes, yes, and yes. Sure, the work was more challenging, but nothing I could not handle. The group of friends I had last year

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-86659795181224324772007-07-01T20:50:00.000-04:002007-07-01T21:00:29.828-04:00

Originally from May 2006. I wrote this as my junior high year ended. You can see how I've changed my writing from then, until now. Enjoy!Drama. Lies. Guys. Fights. All apart of junior high life. But put all of that aside and look to the brighter side of life. Remember all the girls that have become your best friends. Guys that have become brothers to you. Any one of these people would do anything

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-84087954281711396972007-07-01T20:27:00.000-04:002007-07-01T20:29:58.960-04:00

Orginally Posted June 25, 2007:Can you say nerd? No, I'm just extremely bored this summer. Sure, I love hanging out with people, but my days seem so pointless. I sleep in until I get yelled at to wake up. I spend the rest of the day doing nothing at all. I want to go back to school so I am able to see people again. I don't mind school. The work wasn't bad either. I miss seeing everyone.Lately,

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-90925154597191487432007-07-01T20:26:00.000-04:002007-07-01T20:27:57.448-04:00

Originally Posted June 25, 2007:I've tried to let you see it without saying it. I've tried to make my feelings known, but every time I do, I just set myself up for failure. Now, I'm trying to let you know that you still mean what you meant six months ago to me. I want you to know that I still have feelings for you. I didn't get that closure I was looking for way back when. I want to know what you

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-19820491847956048632007-07-01T20:25:00.000-04:002007-07-01T20:26:42.568-04:00

Originally Posted on June 28, 2007:I've been told that my opinion of people changes, not the actual person. Not true, not at all. When someone hurts you, badly, you have nothing to do, but resent them for the time being. After a while, you do get over it. You will forget, and you will move on. When someone takes something from you, you don't have control over it. You can't make them give it up.

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-29996879383860052802007-06-25T14:21:00.000-04:002007-06-25T14:24:59.405-04:00

We've grown up a little too fastWe haven't held on to our adolescenceWe've done things we weren't ready forWe've made our mistakesWe fell for all the wrong peopleWe didn't tell others how we feltWe held back what was thoughtWe kept in what should have been saidThese are the best years of our livesAnd will always beThe way we feel now may not be the sameSooner or later, we all move on

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-52709605295883694542007-06-24T22:56:00.001-04:002007-06-24T23:00:02.937-04:00

These days are the hardestKnowing you no longer careKnowing I'm still stuck on youAnd that we're no longer usIt's hard day-to-day seeing youEach day only brings me more confusionEach day leads me in a different directionI don't know where I am anymoreI'm lost, I'm angryI'm sick of your petty gamesWhy can't I have you?Why aren't we together?Why do we have to continue this life?Thing is, we don'tWe

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-83284606701510274792007-06-24T22:51:00.000-04:002007-06-24T22:56:01.887-04:00

As much as I want to, I can't. I can't tell you I still like you. I fear the awkwardness between us, or the rejection I might face. Since when did you become the dictator of us? You don't get to decide when it ends and when it begins. I get a say in this too. I say we don't act like we're 'just friends.' I say we get back together. I say that we go back to how we were. I say you are wrong, and I

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-38293295752363315232007-06-24T22:48:00.000-04:002007-06-24T22:51:50.815-04:00

Sometimes you don't know what you want. Sometimes your options aren't clear. Sometimes you don't want to choose between the two. Sometimes there is no black or white answer. Then, you're stuck in grey.

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-4028814284062955692007-06-23T18:37:00.001-04:002007-06-23T18:48:42.614-04:00

When you show love and compassion and do not receive it back, does one tend to have more or less love for the other? Wanting the other person will make you love them more, for the time being. Waiting a long time to see someone else and to have their love eventually will also urge someone to have a greater love. If you truly do love someone, your love continues to grow. Is the growth of love just

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-56291003425697289522007-06-23T00:12:00.000-04:002007-06-23T00:27:49.995-04:00

Lostprophets has the title of this blog as a song on their newer album and I'm basically obsessed. I should have listened to this song way back when since it describes what I felt then perfectly.Back to the present: Today, I was reading my old messages on Facebook for no apparent reason and I miss what I had then, even a month ago. I wish I could salvage what was going on then. I have a party to

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-36226850966147157072007-06-21T23:23:00.000-04:002007-06-21T23:28:54.704-04:00

One more for tonight: I could not have made it through this past year without my friends. I love all of you guys. Not going to go into specifics, I'd be here for another two hours. Except Chelly since I've known her the longest. Ten years officially. We are one amazing duo. We can hang out and do the most random things and have a blast. I cannot name all of our inside jokes and everything we've

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-26990676140807675682007-06-21T23:00:00.000-04:002007-06-21T23:08:24.908-04:00

I thought I was not over you, but turns out I am. I don't feel any attraction, I don't want to be together. That doesn't mean I want to see you with other people, but it's a start. I can deal with this now. I can deal with just being friends. I can deal with the idea of us not together. I've gone through many withdraws of thinking about us and how I wanted you, but that's all gone. Sorry to be

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-41804052263310493962007-06-21T15:04:00.000-04:002007-06-21T15:10:36.066-04:00

It's not worth the time thinking about you, yet I still do. The whole time we were together were some of the best I've had in a long time. You took my mind off what was going on and what I had been thinking about. No matter what you say, I cannot put us in the back of my mind. You interest me. I don't know that much about you. Discovering new things about you is one of the things I liked about

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-61166238440755542132007-06-21T14:48:00.000-04:002007-06-21T15:12:48.112-04:00

You really let me down. You led me on. You made me believe we were going to make this work. I thought it was going good. Then, we completely split. I don't know where we are, if you like me like you said, or even what you think. You were more than I expected, but then that all vanished. I hope there is an 'us' in the future. Best of luck, I love you, and I'll be seeing you.

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-85427680493176101802007-06-21T14:37:00.003-04:002007-06-21T15:11:34.066-04:00

you tore us apart when it was getting good. your 'just friends' excuse just didn't cut it, yet i didn't fight. four months later, i found myself in the arms of another. it reminded me of how it was for us. i enjoyed being with someone else. when that didn't last, i wanted to swear off guys for a while. now, I'm stuck on you again. i thought i had moved on from you, and for a while i did. when the

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-89886664528032705822007-06-21T14:37:00.001-04:002007-06-21T15:12:35.345-04:00

have you ever been confused on something that's so easy to comprehend? its the worst feeling in the world-being sick to your stomach. you cry when you think about all the time you two spent together and everything you've done with each other. you're heart will still skip a beat when you think of them and you'll feel the exact same way you always have about them even though they hurt you. but

Teganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00484200509753016266noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3832998954272493491.post-4401191988606666562007-06-21T14:34:00.000-04:002007-06-21T15:13:10.352-04:00

After thinking about A Tale of Two Cities (sorry to remind honors classes of it), I remembered what Dubb had to say about the meaning of the novel. She said Dickens was trying to show how no one person can fully know another. No matter what someone thinks or feels or wants to happen, no one will ever know everything about you. You will keep your secrets from others no matter how close you are. I

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